June 2, 2012 my MIL passed away at 5:41am... The Mister was there, holding her hand and talking to her. She had faced her battle with cancer courageously. She never stopped fighting and she never gave up hope.
Now, I don't talk about religion very often, but I am a firm believer in Jesus Christ. So, as a warning to any non-believers, this next paragraph will contain religious text...
I can't say that I even remotely know what God's plan for my life is, but what if it was His perfect timing for us to get to SATX because He knew the sFIL would need us so badly? Did I think we would have more time with my MIL? Yes! Did I think she would go on to Heaven so soon? No. Did I have any doubt that the sFIL would be unable to function after the MILs passing? Nope, I knew he would be in a bad bad place. So, yeah, what if all this was God's will? What if God knew that the Mister and I would be able to hold the family together? If so, I'm here God! Show me what to do!!
It's said that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. Geez, God must really believe in me because right now I'm not so sure!! So many memories are attached to her things and it makes it really hard to put those things in a box. Here's an example, my sister in law, C, was helping me box up the MILs hanging clothes today. Near the end, C came across the MILs leather jacket. So, I started telling C how the MIL waited for really good prices, how she and I had IM'd back and forth looking at the many different styles, and how much she loved the leather jacket she ended up choosing... Sigh.
Well, it's late and I'm exhausted. I'll come back soon with a long drawn-out eulogy. ;0)
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